Welp, yesterday was my birthday and I turned 40.
Thank you to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday, I’m very grateful for the comments and messages that you guys send me... You know, I should be happy and excited about my birthday, but, that was not the case this year. Because, to be honest, I was scared and sad.
Scared and sad because that was my last year as a 30s-year-old man. I was afraid to turn 40 this year. Probably I reached the “middle of the road”. And a lot of things happened in my life. Things that made me think about what am I doing with life so far. Like, the cost of living that I'm in, and the fact that I’m the one that I have to take care of my parents since their pensions are not enough to live with, because of obvious reasons in Venezuela. So many things that really made me think about how I’m managing my life.
But, despite all that, there are things that I’m grateful in life: I have a job (for the fifth time), which I like it; I finally got my own studio; I have the things I need for art-related work, the laptop and the Cintiq, and very soon the iPad for doing digital art to-go, I participated twice in the Caracas Comic Con in the past; also I participated in a small exposition hosted by Zombiexquisito. Well, these are the small victories that I achieved in my life.
But, reaching this age makes me wonder if I achieved the other goals, like traveling to the world; or go to the USA’s Comic Cons; making my project; and so on… So many things that I’m questioning if all that I’m doing is really worth it.
I really don’t know how to express what I’m feeling at this moment. But, I do know that this new year I will make changes in my life, personal and professional. Like:
-Redesign my brand name and my website
-Stop thinking and worrying about money and start to improve my art.
No, I’m not saying that I’m going to make art for free (and I mean free request and stuff), I do need money to make a living. Being obsessed with the money that is my problem.
-Stick in one main theme. I realized that I made too many art themes. And not stick in one. And I realized that my main theme is drawing sexy Pin-Ups in the manga/anime style. What am I doing?! I’ll explain this in a future post.
-And lastly, stop being afraid to express what I think and feel about something and what others think about what I say.
In time, I will explain in detail each one of them in future posts. But, this is my list of to-do things in my life. One step at a time.
And so that’s it. That’s how I will manage my life from now on.
I want to say thank you for everyone for wishing me a Happy Birthday and for your kind words and support. I really appreciate it.
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